Pregnancy pics thus far :)

This one was taken at my first appointment and also on the day we got the ultrasound done. I am 12 weeks in this pic. :)

This was taken today. I am creepin up on 16 weeks. These are actually not maternity jeans!! Gotta love low rise!!!!!! lol

I am feeling little bumps every now and then. Im thinkin "hes" givin those long legs of his a stretchin!!

Some folks have asked me if I have names picked out. Umm, yes, but you should know by now that I dont share that info until much later!!!

Im feeling good and pray each day that baby is healthy. Thats all I want!!

Til next time....

xoxo

S

First pic of the lil one....

"Hes" just chillin and loungin around. :) This was 12 weeks and "he" is measuring 13 weeks. What long legs he has!! :)

SURPRISE!! :)

Well, as you know, I use a picture to go along with my blog of the moment. I think this picture pretty much sums it all up without writing anything.......but, I will anyway. ;)
We are expecting a baby in February!! :) This baby was planned, in case you were wondering. lol
We had an ultrasound last week and everything looks as it should for this date in the pregnancy. Baby is measuring a week ahead which is awesome. My tummy is also measuring a week ahead. I guess we are both just overachievers. ;)
I have a Midwife and three OBs that I am seeing and they are all very nice, caring, and compassionate, and although I will miss my former doctor so much, I feel this is a great trade off.
We will have a Level II ultrasound in a couple of months with a Perinatalogist. They will look at every single part of baby in great detail. We are hoping and praying that we get great news.
I know that yall were with me on last years journey, and I hope that you will still be by my side for this one. I love yall and I couldnt be strong without your support.
I am feeling different with this pregnancy, more like my first three. Ive been queasy, Ive thrown up, Ive been exhausted, Ive cried at the silliest things. That, along with the very good ultrasound we got last week, gives me a great deal of hope that this baby will be ok. :)

I guess thats all. :)

Til next time...

XOXO
S

Smile :)

Thats all ya get!! A big ole smile with some pretty whatever kind of flowers those are!!

Im vagueblogging.

xoxo,

S

Just this.

No picture.

No paragraphs.

Just this.

Can it stop now?

Please.

Make it stop.

Slacker!!

Yep. Thats me!! Big ole blog slacker!!

Im sure youll all forgive me though, right? :)

Things have just been really busy and although they have been busy, not alot has happened. If that makes any sense at all?

This month is one of my faves and it deserves a blog. May!! Its when summer finally gets here and hopefully the rain stops so the flowers can come!! Its when we moved into our house!! Its when Mothers Day is!! lol Its when Rusty and I got married (ten years this year!!)!! Its when Maxers was born!! Its when Head Start has its last day!! Its when RCSC has its last day!! Its when Memorial Day is and that means lakes and pools open for the season!! Dunes, yay!!!

Isnt that a bunch of exciting stuff?? I think so.

Today marked the first day this year that I laid out in the sun. It was actually hot too!!

Today is also Macs birthday!! Hes a big ole six year old like his brother Sisco (his birthday is in Febrary) now. This birthday is especially sweet because on Easter weekend this year we almost lost him to colic. So thankful that the big guy is his old self again. :)

Speaking of thankful, as the dreary months have passed us and the brighter months are beginning, I find myself smiling more and feeling more thankful for all that I have in my life. I have a fantastic family (furry kids included!!) that I wouldnt trade for the world. I have great friends that would do anything for me and me for them. I have a job that I love going to every day. I am very blessed and I dont take it for granted for a second. I know how precious and fleeting it all can be.

I hope that everyone enjoys this month as much as I do!! I dont know when I will blog again. I usually try to have a reason for blogging. Maybe this summer will spew out oodles and oodles of reasons!! lol Or maybe it wont. Ya just never know!!

Til next time....

xoxo

S

Im Either Nuts or Im Normal...

PREFACE: When I had this blog in my head, I didnt have a picture in my head to go with it. I had to write the blog first and then I went in search of a picture to go with it. My first thought was to type in "hold on" in the search box. I found this picture and its perfect. Just thought Id share...


Ok, so my last blog talked about how excited I was for 2010 to go and 2011 to begin. Well, thats still half true.
I discovered as I was watching the ball drop with my husband and kids that a ball was welling in my throat. I was going to cry. I had to suck it up before anybody noticed. It visited me again once everyone was in bed asleep and its been making an appearance every now and then since New Years Eve.
It sounds strange, but as much as I was wanting all of the sadness of 2010 to be gone, I realized that the sadness also held people I love within it. By wanting the sadness to be gone, I was also wanting the people I loved to be gone too, right? Well maybe not, but at the current moment, thats how I feel. I know that no matter if the year changes over, that Owen will not be gone from my heart or my memory. I know that all of my lost loved ones will still be a part of me for as long as I live. I dont know why I am linking the sad events and the people they involved with the year of the events happening? I guess more time and more thinking will straighten it all out.
Or maybe not. lol Im getting used to unanswered questions being a part of my life.
Ill just continue to live and laugh and love and be happy and grateful for what I have. Thats all I can do!! :)
Two blogs in two days......dont get used to that!! ;)
xoxo,
S

The New Year

The new year is coming, the new year is coming!! To say I am excited to put 2010 behind me is an understatement. I am not a big fan of 2010. It just held way too much sadness.
I wont start there though. I will start with saying that 2010 had some goodness too. I think that the biggest good thing that happened this year was my finding my perfect, awesome, fantastic, excellent, wonderful, PERFECT job teaching the most adorable preschoolers on the planet alongside a longtime best friend. Another good from this year is that I also discovered that no matter how many years are between you, how many mishaps and ups and downs between you, if a friendship is true and genuine, it will come together without any hassle, it will pick right up where it left off, it will be stronger than ever, and it will all happen at the PERFECT moment in time. Funny how that works.
Now, to the flip side, the badness. I wont rehash the bad of the year. Although, it would show how lopsided 2010 was in regards to good vs. bad, happy vs. sad. lol I wont be snarky though. I will just say this. I learned from each sad event and I know that each sad event had a purpose in the grand scheme of things. I am constantly learning and growing as a person. This year, though, I can definitely say I changed. My whole outlook on life was rocked to the core. So, now Im starting anew and feeling my way through all of this. Some things changed along with my changing that I didnt expect to change, but its ok. I have faith that those things will work themselves out in time. Until then, every day is lived moment to moment.
My greatest hope for 2011 is that everything evens out. I know its too much to expect that we have no sadness in 2011, so Im willing to compromise and just ask that the good and the bad at least even out this year. I hope that everyone learns from the events of 2010 and applies what they learned to the events to come in 2011. Lets make this a truly HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Out with the old, in with the new...

xoxo,
S

Help!!! Wanted!!!! Needed!! Must find!!!

I have been hunting like crazy for this bracelet!!! Its a Brighton Floral Trellis, number J35651. I have the lovely ladies of Flirt helping me out but they cant find it in Indiana. Anybody out there in another state seen this bracelet anywhere?? :) Send me a message or comment if you have!! I will love you forever and a day!! Thank you!!

xoxo
S

Coping

This has been posted on several of my friends Facebook pages:

This week (and always) we remember all of the babies born sleeping, those whom we have carried but never met, those we have held but could not take home, and the ones that came home but didn't stay. Make this your status if you or someone you know has suffered the loss of a baby. The majority won't do it, because unlike cancer, baby loss is still a taboo subject. Break the silence. In memory of all tiny angels. ♥

While I havent been able to post this as my own status, just because I cant bring myself to do it. I just wanted everyone to know that seeing it and reading the comments that follow it, have really helped me. I am slowing learning that I am not alone in this struggle. I read the comments and I discover that several people I know have experienced what I have gone through, either in their own life or in their family life. I had no idea. Before I went through this I had never known anyone to lose a baby so late into a pregnancy, I never knew that Owen's diagnosis existed. The closest I came is having close friends who had miscarried early in their pregnancy, sometimes multiple pregnancies. A whole new world has been opened to me. Its a world that I wish I didnt have to know about, a world that I wish didnt exist for anyone.

Maybe this is why this happened to me. Maybe I needed to have my eyes opened to this sad world a little bit more.

I am starting to do better. I still have my breakdown moments, but I feel myself getting stronger. It will always hurt, I know that. But I am feeling less and less like I have to have a wall up.

I had to shut out babies and people with babies in order to cope and for that I am sorry. You know who you are. I hope that you know deep in your heart that I did not mean any hurt by it. I just had to do it to protect myself and to be able to move forward.

I think thats all for now...

xoxo,
S