Today I Got a TATTOO!!

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

I have been wanting to bust this out for a while now, but forced myself to keep quiet until it was all done. I GOT A TATTOO!!!!!! Yay!!! I found an idea of what I wanted but then I drew it and perfected it myself. It took a couple of weeks and several different tries to get the one that made me cry. That's how I knew it was the ONE. I already had an appointment made and was collaborating with my tattoo artist to get his input since this was my first tattoo. He probably thinks I'm nuts but he was really great and I felt comfortable the entire time!!

I am not going to show the actual pic online. Eventually I may show portions but I know how the internet is and I just don't want my private design shared and used. 

I got this in memory of my angel Owen and my angel Sisco. If you wanna close your eyes and try to imagine my tattoo, feel free. :) If you look closely you can see an S for Sisco and there are two lil O's for Owen. The three lines on the hearts are for Owen, Sisco, and myself.......our hearts are joined together for infinity. ♥

This day has been kind of emotional. I wasn't nervous or scared about my tattoo. Once I got the tattoo and ever since then today, I have had things pop up that have reminded me of exactly why I wanted to get my memorial tattoo. Some songs I heard and some shows I watched touched a place that I have reserved for Owen and Sisco. In a way, it reassured me that they are with me and that was their way of telling me just that. Today has been a bit teary at times, but then I stop and think, you know what, I went through hell from 2010 to 2012 with what seemed like loss after loss and the universe just knockin me into the ground. It was a very hard thing to bounce back from and I will be the first to admit that I took a hella long time to do so. But now, things are good. I feel like myself, actually I feel better. I have become even stronger than I was and I also gained the knowledge to help others who have to go through something similar. The tears and the sadness will never be something that will completely leave me, but I am determined to be happy, and make my life everything I have ever dreamt of it being. I feel like we are beginning again and life is brighter and sunnier and Someone is on our side!! I feel like I can BREATHE again and it feels wonderful!! :)

Here's looking forward to what lies ahead in life and being able to look down at my wrist and smile at where I have been and how I have learned and grown from what I went through. Cheers!!

Til next time...

Monday

Monday.

If you go to work or go to school, then you dread Monday. If you are a stay at home mom, you look forward to Monday.

Let's call it what it really is for us stay at home moms. Let's take out that "n" and put in an "m" and make it Momday.

As a stay at home mom, the weekends are crazy and busy and total chaos. We look forward to them all week but then come Sunday afternoon, we're done. We're spent. Weekends. We have our spouse home and our school age kids home and the routine that you and your little one follow all week long is totally lost and destroyed and nonexistent on the weekends. Our little one overdoses on stimulation and is a total brat whose ears are completely broken. There are too many people telling him what to do. There are too many people doing what they want. There are too many people......too much stuff............and it is overwhelming.

This is why Monday is really Momday.

Momday is when we can BREATHE and relax a bit and get back into our routine and refocus and get our daily mom things done. Our little one that stays home with us is a lil more controllable and a lil bit nicer because he too appreciates the routine and knowing what we are doing each day and he doesn't have to deal with the willy nilliness of the weekends that makes him, in his own words, "CRABBY". It's quieter and there isn't the stumbling into or around of other people while you are trying to get done what you do on a daily basis.

Monday is a calm day.

Tuesday though..................that's a whole different story.....

Keep calm and Momday on!!!


Til next time...
xoxo
S